This does not mean that there should be no faith in sat-guru. One thing that is most hindrance and troublesome is either complete lack of faith or partial faith. As a matter of fact partial faith is like no faith. Our evaluation of sin and good deeds changes as we tread along the path of sadhana. In spiritual field lack of faith is the biggest sin since it is the heaviest and most stubborn obstacle in the path to remove. Faith is considered creative and expressive only when we have developed true heartfelt devotion in the ultimate goal of life and the tools that are used to achieve that goal. When we really need the help from somebody it is not difficult to be attached to that person. When there is sudden and real self interest is present we ignore unpleasant aspects and even if it is obvious we tend to ignore it. This is a matter of our experience. We do not have 'must have' like self interest in sadhana. I say that if you have self interest keep faith. Nothing will work in this path without faith. Faith is conducive to knowledge and wisdom. Faith is never blind as that is its characteristic. People who call faith as blind do not understand it. So there is no need for any explanation for the contra-wise feeling you have about this soul. I am telling you this very clearly as a friend that this kind of doubts are very dangerous. It is not possible to remove this vrutti of doubt just by writing about it. It is painful to see this condition of swajans (relatively) who have come on their own for development of their lives. This soul will happily accept this pain as an ultimate grace and blessings from Shree Prabhu (bhagawan) with joyous spirit.
Pujya Shree Mota
Jivan Sanshodhan
Edition 6; Pages 60 - 61.
Pujya Shree Mota
Jivan Sanshodhan
Edition 6; Pages 60 - 61.
